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The Alexandra Billings Story

The Alexandra Billings Story

Surgery Update: Many of you were exactly right. Seeing the medical team was infact, healing. Perhaps it too some of the mystery out of the fear, but whatever the reason, it lifted some weight. And taking you all in there with me, I felt like I had a million suitcases packed with a million angels singing a millions different songs. Surgery date is set for Dec 11 As soon as I am able, I’ll spill the entire beans. All of them. Every single bean. Right now I am still taking small steps, doing the be

Surgery Update: Many of you were exactly right. Seeing the medical team was infact, healing. Perhaps it too some of the mystery out of the fear, but whatever the reason, it lifted some weight. And taking you all in there with me, I felt like I had a million suitcases packed with a million angels singing a millions different songs. Surgery date is set for Dec 11 As soon as I am able, I’ll spill the entire beans. All of them. Every single bean. Right now I am still taking small steps, doing the be

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DAY FOURTEEN: I received a message a few days ago asking about the “pumping” process I had done over 40 years ago, in which over 5 pounds of illegal silicone was injected into my hips and my backside. After this long, my body finally began to reflect it by the formation of tennis ball sized, purple and deep red bruise on my right Buttox which caused intermitable pain. Surgery was 3 weeks ago, and the recovery process has been indescribable. I have tried to document this journey as best I could,

DAY FOURTEEN: I received a message a few days ago asking about the “pumping” process I had done over 40 years ago, in which over 5 pounds of illegal silicone was injected into my hips and my backside. After this long, my body finally began to reflect it by the formation of tennis ball sized, purple and deep red bruise on my right Buttox which caused intermitable pain. Surgery was 3 weeks ago, and the recovery process has been indescribable. I have tried to document this journey as best I could,

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DAY SIX: I journey towards a new place, and as I do, I fall apart and I restructure. As I continue to recover from the removal of illegal silicone, I had put into my body in the early 1980s the slow movement into who I am becoming day by day, is shocking. Thank you for seeing me, humans. Darkness like this feels like the moments before the red mornings. And so here I go. Back into the unknown. Back into the newness. I hope this helps. | Alexandra Billings

DAY SIX: I journey towards a new place, and as I do, I fall apart and I restructure. As I continue to recover from the removal of illegal silicone, I had put into my body in the early 1980s the slow movement into who I am becoming day by day, is shocking. Thank you for seeing me, humans. Darkness like this feels like the moments before the red mornings. And so here I go. Back into the unknown. Back into the newness. I hope this helps. | Alexandra Billings

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I am a 63 year old TransWoman. I began my gender transition in 1980 and since then I have had a miraculous, truly remarkable journey that I am profoundly grateful for. I have also been chased and hit and pushed and mocked and tripped down hallways and had rotten eggs thrown at me on the street. I have been publicly humiliated and privately in danger. I’ve spent some time in jail because in the 1980’s it was illegal to walk down the street “dressed like a woman” when … according to the people who

I am a 63 year old TransWoman. I began my gender transition in 1980 and since then I have had a miraculous, truly remarkable journey that I am profoundly grateful for. I have also been chased and hit and pushed and mocked and tripped down hallways and had rotten eggs thrown at me on the street. I have been publicly humiliated and privately in danger. I’ve spent some time in jail because in the 1980’s it was illegal to walk down the street “dressed like a woman” when … according to the people who

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Hey humans Last night I had about a 10 minute window of clarity so I decided to attempt to delve into this open wound of trauma. I’m looking at. I’m not sure if this made much sense I haven’t really gone over the video again to check it, but hopefully it’s not completely nonsensical. I think I’m just looking at what would’ve made a difference in my young life. What might’ve shifted something in my shame. This isn’t about blame. It isn’t about regretting my life. This is just me in a deep in a de

Hey humans Last night I had about a 10 minute window of clarity so I decided to attempt to delve into this open wound of trauma. I’m looking at. I’m not sure if this made much sense I haven’t really gone over the video again to check it, but hopefully it’s not completely nonsensical. I think I’m just looking at what would’ve made a difference in my young life. What might’ve shifted something in my shame. This isn’t about blame. It isn’t about regretting my life. This is just me in a deep in a de

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… DAY THIRTY TWO: I have had to learn how to walk again. When they removed the silicone eight weeks ago, they had to remove parts at me as well. Part of my muscle. This last time in the hospital when they removed the infection, my brilliant surgeon had to rearrange some things in order to attempt to make me as even as possible. Less like a Picasso. But even in the rearranging , there is a difference in my balance and my distribution of weight. Bending my legs, getting out of bed, getting into be

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The women who left are warriors. The ones who stayed, are still living under the rule of the patriarchy. Hopefully the women who left will help the women who stayed move through a portal of change and find their voice and ultimately; their freedom. Until that time, those humans will continue to accept their fate as second class citizens and the little opinions and little opportunity. And when things go badly, instead of standing up and demanding to be heard, they say: “You’re doing a great job.”

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My life is different now I know what it’s like to be present and I know what it’s like to be grateful. And even during this chaos that’s happening around me, I am able to live in the madness of it all. I may run, I make mistakes, I might treat people badly and then I try my best to acknowledge what I’m doing and own it all and then do what I can to promote healing. But if I run, I come back. I make it through the darkness. I am still practicing. Still. Sober Date: October 22, 2023 | Alexandra Bi

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… DAY THIRTY The pain was so severe they upped my medication and finally found something that seems to work. In the meantime, the leaking has stopped, and the infection has seemed to have cleared up. I still cannot walk and I still cannot bend so we are back to square one in a few places But there is a shift. The drains are back with a vengeance. Having something hooked up to each side of me sucking out goo is something I don’t think I’ll ever get used to. My wife, however, needs to have a life

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… DAY FORTY FIVE: On December 11, I had 5 pounds of silicone removed from my buttocks and my hips. The surgery was complicated and long and as I began to recover, other things began to pop up. Day by day leaks happened, infections, happened, sleepless nights, and several trips to the ER. I was told this was normal. I was told by others who’ve had similar surgeries that I was actually doing better than most. It helped for a moment, but in the long run, I’m not used to being this ill for this long

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This is the inner dynamic of an artist at the very height of her powers. To embody moment by moment, in a way that not only reflects character but story. Who is this human? What are they want and where are they going? Their silliness and joy is not only part of who they are but sets up the atmosphere around them. Because Gwen Verdon took choreography to a place of complete freedom, everything she did became specific to the story. And to her. Compare this to Lola. Verden was Fosse’s muse and his

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I lived on the streets of Chicago for a little over a year. Surviving with nothing but hope, is exhausting. Please watch this and remind yourself of what you have, what you’ve accomplished and what you can do to be of service to humanity. Blessings… | Alexandra Billings

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Dear Trans Family, The Transphobic cowards that make up The Supreme Court of our country, who take their orders from the facist in the White House, who sleeps a lot and freezes like a possum when sees his own reflection in a puddle during times of danger, has just eradicated your existence. You don’t have to calm down. | Alexandra Billings

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… DAY TWENTY EIGHT: On Dec 11 I had 5 pounds of silicone removed from my hips and buttocks that I had pumped into my body in the mid 1980s. The “pumping parties” I went to back then, are still happening. They’re still going on. The fact that you don’t know about them only means just that: You just don’t know about them. I want to make clear that as you’re watching this video or reading this text there are trans women in their 20s or 30s by the carload, going to filthy hotels or someone’s living

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The biological term “Cisgender” is only a trigger for those humans who refuse the existence of the biological term “Transgender” I hope this helps | Alexandra Billings

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TRIGGER WARNING: SA talk, Real confession This was not an easy post for me and I had to record it three or four times. My stutter came back occasionally and I continually mispronounced Ghislaine Maxwell’s name. The trauma is still very real in me. This was as good as I could get. I simply couldn’t record it anymore. I post this for all of us who survive and for all of those who are allies. Thank you for listening and thank you for lifting us up. Blessings, Alex | Alexandra Billings

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She’s a hero of mine. And a warrior. This is what I’ve been talking about. This idea of how trans women and sis women are supposed to look like. How we are supposed to sound. What we are supposed to do to our ourselves to be feminine. To be attractive. And who exactly are making these rules? Men. | Alexandra Billings

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We are a community and we belong to and with each other, just like every other community. There is a reason our stories are ours, and there is a reason we should be telling them. Us. Not you; Us. Who we are is not something others can adopt. We are not an idea nor are we a phase. I’m tired of being called “Brave” or “Courageous” simply because I am Transgender. You think if I had a choice, I would have decided to take this road? You think this journey is cerebral? Like, choosing a pair of shoes.

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We have yet to even begin to uncover the trauma that has seeped into the spirits of every American that has been captured, imprisoned assaulted and blinded by Trump’s secret police. This will take generations to sort out. | Alexandra Billings

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Any time you hear someone speak about these files and they do not speak about survivors of these crimes, you know immediately this is about politics. Not healing. When these humans were SAed, they were children. Some can speak today, most can not. This is about the survivors. And always will be. | Alexandra Billings

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We told you they were coming after us, and we are slowly being proved right. Now we’re telling you that you are next. I hope this time, you believe us. | Alexandra Billings

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The MAGA Cult will now begin to do one of two things: They will either shun every single human in their cult that they know was given their citizenship by their birthright. Or … they will pretend they don’t really know, or have ever known, any of these humans you’re referring to. They are most likely, having emergency meetings, no doubt. Deciding which of the few will be allowed in the cult and which of the many will be erased. This is what I mean when I say we are dealing with a psychosis and

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From one lost blond to another, the Cult who cannot define what a woman is, gives us a lesson is what a woman is. And here she is. Ladies and Geraniums, Riley Gaines Female Woman | Alexandra Billings

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